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One Calling

23 Monday Nov 2015

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Over the past couple of weeks, I have been mulling over the idea of having multiple callings. I heard a great podcast a while back in which the speaker (Chalene Johnson, recommend for a great assortment of business and life principles) suggested that a lot of us have one purpose, but many passions. We have one overarching purpose in life, but it finds expression through many different passions over the course of our lives.

I resonated with that idea. One purpose, multiple passions.
The bottom line is that I do have one calling. Joel preached on Ephesians for a couple of weeks ago, where I read, “I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.” (4:1-3)

Walk in a manner worthy of the calling. One calling to which I have been called. And then, the details: walking with humility, gentleness, patience. Being not just tolerant, but loving toward those who might try my patience. Eager to maintain unity through the Holy Spirit. Eager to maintain a bond of peace with others.

Overall, this is my calling. I am called to walk as an imitator of Christ, living out of an abundance of grace, letting the Holy Spirit dictate not only my words and actions, but my very thoughts.

The other callings, or “vocations,” serve the one calling. I am a wife. A mother. A portrait photographer. A website designer. A small business owner. A music director. An advisor, a counselor, a friend. There are many things in which I am interested, and many things that I enjoy doing. But all of them serve the greater calling, which is to imitate Christ.

Okay.  Let’s shift gears ever so slightly.

Have you ever thought about the word “universe”?

(What, that didn’t feel like a slight shift? It is. Trust me on this.)

I love that word. If I were going to break it down, the word literally means “one turned,” and carries with it the idea of combining all into one. It’ root was first used by Cicero and other other philosophers to talk about all that there was, and reflected the idea of the turning of the planets overhead. It referred to everything that could be observed–and therefore, every thigh that was.

Within the word “universe” is the idea of the rich, vast complexity of all there is, folded into one. Rich, nuanced, and one.

And I can’t help but think of another use of that root word…”verso”, meaning song. Universe: One verse. Now, let me be clear: that’s not the original meaning of this word. But this secondary interpretation is delightful; it is a word that points to the fact that all of creation is limiting its multiplicity of voices, singing one song to its Creator.

We are made in the image of the One who created the universe. It should come as no surprise that through the different seasons of our lives, we discover new and multifaceted interests within our own hearts, and new talents and gifts ready to be used for the glory of the creator. Part of our challenge is picking them up, examining them, and learning to use them. We can encourage one another in this endeavor, holding each other’s dreams with respect, and marveling at the unique gifts given each one of us.

Tell me about your gifts. What passions has the Lord laid on your heart for his glory? How can I encourage you in your multiple callings, even as you pursue your one calling?

May the Lord be delighted as his children enjoy the gifts he has given.

Multipotentialite. Or, People Whose Resumes Are a Little Wierd for LinkedIn.

13 Friday Nov 2015

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I have a variety of journals dating back to the age of six. And if you thumb through them, you will find a spiral staircase of answers to the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

A teacher was first. A mother. A singer. Later, an advertising executive, an illustrator, an author. An English professor. A history professor. A writer.

I was the kid who spent hours in my room writing and drawing, folding a stack of white paper and stapling the inside to make a book, then filling page after page with poems. I sang before I could talk, and started learning piano when I was six. I loved science. I was writing basic programs for our computer when I was ten or eleven.

 I loved history. I would check out so many library books that the bungee cord on the back of my bike would strain to hold them as I rode up the long hill home. Oh, yeah, and among them were dictionaries and thesauruses…thesauri.

I checked out thesauri from the library. More than one. More than once.

I loved all of the subjects. But I knew that one day I would specialize. After all, that’s what we do, right? It never really occurred to me that you could have all the jobs.
Back in the 1830’s, it was not like that that. Not in America, anyway. Generalists were valued. Knowing about many things was expected. Drawing lines between many fields of study was a worthwhile pursuit.

Then came specialization.

You can’t fully blame Darwin or Dewey, but everyone of significance seemed bent on specialization. After all, it was the way of progress! And indeed, only a deep dive into certain subjects would bring about the advances in medicine and science and technology.

But what about those who walk the line between disciplines, who skate from one to another, who survey across the lines from above to observe connections and find fresh ideas between the fields of study?

In college, I finished one major by my junior year, so I added another: Renaissance Studies. It was a major that barely existed, an interdisciplinary major comprised of courses in history, art history, literature, drama…so perfect. I loved it. And the inevitable, “So, what are you going to do with…”

Teach. I’m going to teach. I will be an English Professor.

My professors recognized my passion. I became a Phi Beta Kappa and graduated with my double degree, then packed up my red Ford Escort and moved three thousand miles away to go to graduate school. I undertook a field of study designed to give me the historical context for the literature and drama I loved…and then I fell in love with history.

I will be a History Professor!

I graduated with my master’s degree in church history and moved home.

Or, I could tell it this way: I moved to Boston, and I met fascinating people. I spent hours in museums, studying art. I learned Latin and French. I spent a year writing a thesis drawing the connections between theology and drama and history. I drove a ninety-year-old opera singer down to the Longy School of Music once a week and basked in her stories of life on three or four continents. I became her friend. I was the one she called when her beloved cat Figaro died one snowy afternoon. She gave me a few opera lessons.

I led music for chapel. I grew as a musician, as a worship leader. I endured some very hard times, and out of that I wrote an entire album of songs. I gave a two-hour concert of original music–“Bravissima,” said Mrs. Irving–and then I graduated. I packed up my keyboard, and I moved home.

Both accounts are correct. I became more interdisciplinary.

Back in California with a growing number of degrees, I took a temp job. And then I was hired to do a multidisciplinary job: I came on staff at a church and became the pastor’s assistant. I wrote Bible studies, created PowerPoint presentations, was a sounding board, and was involved with leading the music. I wrote more songs. When the worship pastor went on sabbatical, I led the high school choir and led the music every week.

I am a musician.

And then Westmont called.

I had put in my resume a year earlier. An instructor was going on sabbatical. Would I like to teach the introduction to the history of Christianity?

Of course I would! I will be a history professor!

350 students passed through my lecture course over the next three years. I lectured for two hours twice a week. I loved my students. I loved lecturing, because it meant telling stories. My goal was to embody enthusiasm for history, for the people and the times. To tell their stories. And most of my students loved the stories, too.

This is it, right? But now I need another degree, because I can’t keep teaching at this level with a lonely little Master’s degree.

So, I got a fellowship to Fordham University.

Off to New York City.

Is there a place on earth better suited to a Multipotentialite?

Okay, let me define. A what?

Multipotentialite.

Nope, didn’t know the word existed before today. Then I watched this Ted talk and I felt like I had found my people. Someone who does not have one passion, but many. Who moves from one deep area of interest to another, who walks on the edges of the disciplines.

Back to New York.

As I began to trudge toward my doctorate in history, I looked around and started to feel uneasy. My colleagues had been working for years, heads down in the library. And I respected them. But as I studied art and literature and history, my own interdisciplinary loves bubbled up again. I spent time with new people, including a fascinating young press rep who was destined to be my husband. We went to plays and heard jazz musicians, and I soaked up the beauty of the City. I kept working, balancing the study of two languages with many other classes and massive amounts of reading. I spent my ten hours a week in the medieval studies office, creating newsletters and managing databases and working o the website. I learned to distill vast quantities of thought into several bullet points. I honed my listening skills. I continued to explore the edges of my studies, where art and literature met theology and history, and found some kindred spirits.

But I realized that it wasn’t all I wanted.

I was at one of the top schools in the nation for my field. This was the path I had been traveling for a number of years…only to give up?

I don’t give up.

But the more I thought, prayed, talked to my now-fiancé, the clearer it became: the path I was on required that I sacrifice a number of other parts of who I was becoming, and I couldn’t do that. I was still an artist. A musician. A writer, a singer, a songwriter. And even though my studies were interdisciplinary, there was no margin for the rest of who I was.

When you are a type-A, it can be difficult to be a Multipotentialite.

But it is possible.

So I moved to the next thing.

And the next.

In the dozen years since I finished that second Master’s and let go of academia, I have lived a number of lives. It’s not a tidy list. And grouping the mass of these actives together makes me feel like I look scattered and uncommitted. I’m neither…well, I am not uncommitted. So, my unorthodox resume which does not feel like it would fit in on LinkedIn:

  • I taught sixth grade.
  • I became a mother.
  • I taught piano, with two prodigies among my students.
  • I ghostwrote a book.
  • I wrote my first journal article for Modern Reformation.
  • I started a MOPS group.
  • I led more music and wrote more songs…but a lot fewer after I had kids.
  • I started creating hand-painted photography.
  • I started making portraits.
  • I taught music at a school for three years.
  • I started being paid for making portraits.
  • I mentored young women.
  • I edited a woman’s memoirs.
  • I became the music director at our church.
  • I edited a medical mystery.
  • I became a professional photographer.
  • I opened my first business.
  • I started designing websites.
  • I recorded two webinars.
  • I opened my second business.

When my mom was my age, she went back to school and became a reading specialist, and then she went on and got her doctorate in Educational Psychology.

I always thought that would be my path.

But instead I became a businesswoman. I go to networking groups and listen to endless podcasts on being an entrepreneur. I hired my first assistant. I am launching a third component of my business in the spring.

But you know what?

I am still a storyteller.

When I was little, I wrote stories. And now I tell the stories of families through portraits. And I tell the stories of small businesses through websites. And every Sunday, I tell the redemption story as I lead the beautiful congregation of Pinewoods in worship.

God is a Multipotentialite. Well, no, not potential. He actually does all the things.

And I am made in His image.

So I fit right in, after all.

Dis-Traction

02 Monday Nov 2015

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It is so quiet in my house right now.

My senior photo session was rained out this afternoon. But the reality is that my gracious Abba cleared my afternoon–I can almost hear a gentle voice saying, “You need to rest. So I will give you a cozy afternoon and some unexpected time, and you need to use it to rest.”

Mostly, I did.

I had a nap.  A long, hard nap, the kind that makes you realize that you’ve been pushing too hard.

Then my sweet kids and my sweet husband headed out to our Sunday night youth program. And I had quiet.

I am praying through Ephesians, so I broke in a new journal. Bliss. I sang and worshiped with a new favorite song.  I had time–real time–with Jesus.

Oh, how I needed this.

Joel preached this morning from Ephesians 4, and one of the points that spoke clearly was my deep need to have my loves reordered by”learning Christ.” It is such an interesting construction. It is a word that means to learn from experience, and has a connotation of “coming to realize.” Joel used the illustration of our marriage–over the past twelve years, we have learned each other more and more. I know my Joel in ways I could not have known before; there are facets of learning from experience–things he likes, things he doesn’t like, things that matter more to him than I might guess–and there are realizations that come in key moments. As I learn him, our intimacy deepens.

Jesus wants me to learn him.

I think back over the hours and days and years I have spent studying Jesus. And then the sweet times of worship, where I have learned him in other ways. The retreats with sisters who have helped me learn him, and the books I have read that revealed new parts of his character. Being married and having children has opened different ways of learning Christ, seeing him, realizing him.

But too often, I am too distracted to learn.

And that’s where the reordering of my loves comes in.

Often, my distractions come in the form of very, very good things. Gifts the Lord has given. People I love. Podcasts to listen to, clients to engage, art to make, songs to sing, beauty to enjoy, books to read, websites to design, walks to take, exercise to attempt, photos to edit, non-profits to start, people to encourage, small business owners to coach, worship to plan, books to write, articles to read.

So many good things.

And my Mary heart is often overcome by my Martha life. And I stop gaining real traction in anything.

I was praying with a friend the other day, and I suddenly had one of those flashes of clarity: distraction is dis-traction. It is the negating of traction in my life. It causes me to slip, to get off track.

So I have renounced two things: Multi-tasking is one. Can’t do it. Not a real thing. Read Kevin DeYoung’s Crazy Busy and think about the fact that you and I are incapable of multitasking. Sure, we can time-slice our little hearts out, but none of us can actually focus on more than one thing at a time. So I will work. And then I will put my work down and be with my husband, or talk to my kids, or listen to my podcast and focus.

And second, I am renouncing busyness. I have a lot of hats, but the Lord is the one sovereignty controlling them, and  if I am too busy, I am not listening. I may have a full schedule, but each day does not need to feel busy.  Building margin back into my life is critical if I am going to live a life of traction.

I’m not renouncing productivity. The Lord has given me a calling–a Why–and has given me several corresponding ways to live out that why. But I can’t do what he is calling me to do if I live in a distracted manner.

Now, I’m going to tell you right now: I will struggle with this. The Holy Spirit is the only one who can gather the threads together, braid them together, and make something strong and whole.

But He can, and He is faithful. So, I will trust him to help me to rest in him, finding my identity in the completed work of Christ and not in all of these good works he prepared for me to do.

Jesus, I would life a life free from dis-traction, instead walking with step with your Holy Spirit and seeing the purpose and usefulness that comes from walking in your ways. Give me eyes to see, ears to hear. Make me a good steward of these people and opportunities that you have placed in my care. Let your weighty grace be evident in my life.

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