Have you ever had a Bible verse rattle around in your head for years, divorced from its context, wreaking an insidious havoc?
It might be a promise lifted out of context which makes you question whether God really meant such things for you because your circumstance seem to prove it false. It may be a voice of condemnation which, separated from its passage, calls to you when you are at your lowest.
Sometimes they seem innocuous, and maybe you even knew the context at one time, but over the years only the ten-second sound byte remains, and it isn’t the whole truth.
“In quietness and trust would be your strength, but you would have none of it.”
At least that is how I remembered it.
It’s a verse from Isaiah 30, and not necessarily drawn from a passage that you want stitched on a sampler. It’s a passage with Assyrians and war, a passage that also refers to “an oracle on the beasts of the Negeb,” the kind that you might hop over as pertinent only it its original audience. But there are some (okay, many) parts of the passage worthy of any good Scripture memory program, and I also love Isaiah, so that’s probably how that one little partial verse got in there in the first place.
It starts off hopeful, in my mind…”in quietness and trust would be your strength.” I mean, who doesn’t want that kind of solid, secure, dignified strength? Strong, dignified, trusting, quiet, that kind of simmering courage that is the stuff of world leaders.
Then the second part, as I remembered it: “but you would have none of it.” It’s not that part that isn’t correct; that’s the translation of the NIV. There were two problems with the verse in my memory: the loss of an additional first half of the verse, and the use of “would” in the first part. As in, here you go again, you would have all of this fabulous quietness and strength, but you blew it. You would have it, but you simply wouldn’t have it, and now you’re just going to have to fend for yourself. And even though I’m a pretty solid student of Covenant Theology, there is enough orphan left in me that lets that condemnation sit and rot.
So today I looked the verse up in all of its oracle context, and the Lord showed me something astounding.
That disembodied verse is only the beginning of the story.
Let’s start there, at the beginning, with a little more context, and let’s use the correct verb tense this time. And just for clarity, let’s quote from the good old ESV:
In returning (repenting) and rest you shall be saved;
in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.
But you were unwilling, and you said,
“No! We will flee upon horses”;
therefore you shall flee away;
and, “We will ride upon swift steeds”;
therefore your pursuers shall be swift.
Three critical things. First, a quick aside: it all starts with repentance and rest. Kind of forgot about that part. But man, is that important. More on that in a moment.
Second, it’s not I would have been saved through repentance and rest and made strong in quietness and trust and NOW I WON’T. Instead, I “shall be saved.” These things “shall be my strength.” The orphan didn’t blow it; the adopted child is still safe and secure. She just went on a detour.
Third, let’s look at the alternative presented right here. Now, I’m not sure if there is a better picture of busyness than “No! We will flee upon horses!” Right? Do you ever feel like your schedule is fleeing upon horses? And I’m not talking about a nice canter along the ocean with a setting sun. I’m talking about, I got on the horse, and someone slapped it before my feet were in the stirrups and now I’m holding on for dear life. It’s totally possible that I’m being dragged along behind.
Do you ever feel like that?
Okay, now I’m going to ask a harder question:
Why?
A friend looked me in the eyes at the beginning of the summer and asked a pointed question: “Why are you so driven?”
It wasn’t a typical, “Hey, aren’t you overscheduling a bit? Hey, maybe you need a vacation.” It was deeper.
I could have laughed it off–“Yep, us firstborns, non-stop action!” Or I could have brushed it aside with, “Hey, I have a lot of interests, and there are some great opportunities right now.” Because that’s not what he was asking. It was about my core. And what I heard was, “What are you running from?”
And that really is the question, isn’t it?
Those being addressed in Isaiah were enduring actual war. They were trusting in their horses and chariots to save them, because they had an actual enemy bearing down on them. And they needed God to save them, but they were too busy trying to save themselves. So God let them see how that was going to go for them. He let them reap the consequences of their trust in themselves.
A lot of the time, our schedules belie either a deep trust in ourselves, or a deep need to avoid hard questions. Or both.
I took my friend’s question to heart. And now I’m going to ask you.
If you are in a life going a thousand miles an hour, what are you running from?
Is it a memory too difficult to work through? Patterns of thought that will require a complete reworking of how you deal with people and the world? Is it a lie you’ve been living with that is so foundational that you can’t imagine your life without it? Are you running from quiet and silence because your thoughts are too loud when you are quiet and silent, demanding to be dealt with? Or are you afraid to stop long enough to find out what it is that you are running from at all?
I get it.
And that is what struck me this time when I read this verse again.
Because here is the next part:
Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him…you shall weep no more. He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry. As soon as he hears it, he answers you.
He waits. He waits to be gracious. He waits to show mercy until we cry to him, and in that moment, he hears and answers.
We run around, dragged by our horses, filling our schedules with activity to avoid the silence where we would meet with God. But he waits. He waits with grace and mercy. And when we stop and cry out, he answers.
Which leads us back to the very beginning: “In repentance and rest you shall be saved.” Stopping. Turning away from sin–including our idolatrous coping mechanisms to which we turn instead of turning to God–and resting in the completed work of Christ. Is there a better picture of the gospel than that?
We stop. We cry out. And we receive.
All of that quietness and trust. It’s right there. Gifts, with your name, my name, waiting to be opened. Not just once, but time and time again as I repent, turn to Christ, and receive grace.
In repentance and rest we will be saved. In quietness and trust shall be our salvation. And the one who offers it is big enough to help us to deal with whatever may arise out of the silence.
And that is not all.
But that is part 2.
